The Whimsical Woman. Who is she?
Well, she’s me.
And maybe she’s you, too.
And if you are a man reading this, then I encourage you to keep reading because you may be able to relate as well. This has nothing to do with gender.
This has everything to do with being “too much”.
If you’re anything like I am, I seem to operate in a spectrum that is sometimes “too colorful”, “too intense”, “too passionate”, “too _________” to other people. You get my point.
And then at other times, I am not enough.
This is quite confusing, as you can imagine, but I feel like you CAN imagine it because you have probably felt the same exact way at some point in your life.
I, for one, have rushed to therapy to talk solely about me “being too much” and me “not being enough” all at the same time. I mean, I didn’t realize I was that talented to exist in such a way, so someone go get this girl a cookie already!
But in all honesty, I felt like who I was as a woman was such a problem that I needed to suppress all of the “too much” and highlight all of the “not enough” parts of me.
In therapy, these were some of my main questions:
“Why don’t I desire the same things so many around me desire?”
“Why do I often give more in relationships (of all sorts) than they give to me?”
“Why do I crave being alone?”
“Why am I not more emotional in ways that count?”
These questions are some of my biggest insecurities. I often feel as if I am not wired correctly. (Or maybe it’s just all of the coffee I drink. Too bad I’m not going to stop.)
It’s like I am watching everyone live their life inside of this bubble, and I am on the outside watching (like a creep).
But something quite beautiful has been happening lately which is why The Whimsical Woman has been created. I have become less fearful of my insecurities and given less weight to how society wants a 27 year old, single woman to act.
I want to be a woman who is refined, constantly growing, and in urgent pursuit of humility. What better way to be that woman than by experiencing life through travel, adventures, and facing my fears?
This blog is going to document all things that inspire me. There will be no consistency, except that of passion and whimsicality. (Cue judgment from all serious bloggers. “The Number 1 Rule in blogging is to be consistent and have a clear platform.”) Well to hell with that!
This blog is for me.
But I hope it can also be for you.
The Whimsical Woman is about a woman who loves life and wants to reach it’s deepest core, even when it comes with the pain and darkness that’s promised. Feeling alive is the greatest gift I can give myself and I can only hope to pass some of that life along to you.
With love and hopes of adventure,
Jennifer Mabus, The Whimsical Woman
def: whimsical – playfully quaint or fanciful, especially in an appealing and amusing way